thanks to everyone who sent messages yesterday! i was too out of it to reply, but i just slept for 10 hours and feel much better. scott’s still at the hospital but just so they can monitor him and make sure there’s nothing weird going on — they think it was just a matter of low blood pressure, so we’re hoping he’ll be discharged later today. i still feel a little weird but i think it’s just anxiety, so i figure once scott is officially cleared i’ll be fine. :)
thanks guys. ♥
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You belong with me
You’re my sweetheart
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still in the emergency room, still waiting to be seen by a doctor. scott is being admitted so they can do some tests to try and figure out what happened.
thanks for the good thoughts, guys. ♥ scott and billy are both asleep, but i keep drifting off for like three minute intervals and then jolting awake, ugh. allegedly a doctor is going to come examine me (and then scott) at some point but idk when it’s supposed to happen. i wanna go home. :(
so i’m in the emergency room and have been for like idk four hours or so
check this out: i was feeling weird earlier, a little queasy and just sort of off. i started googling my symptoms and thought i may have been showing early signs of a heart attack, which might seem ridiculous since i’m only 32, but both of my maternal grandparents died of heart attacks; my grandfather at 44 and my grandmother at 64, and my mom has high blood pressure, and i’m overweight. plus, today (well, yesterday now, may 17) is the anniversary of my dad’s death, and i have my little boy who i did NOT want to have lose his mother, so i woke scott up (this was at 10:30 or so) and we came to the emergency room.
burying the lede a bit but i am, apparently, fine, altho it took TWO HOURS after my EKG before a nurse let me know that it came back normal, at which point i burst into tears because i was fucking petrified.
BUT GET THIS SHIT: while i was in triage having my vitals taken, scott was holding the baby (toddler, whatever) and he suddenly gives him to me and says he feels dizzy, so he sits down, says “i’m going to faint, i’m going to faint,” and proceeds to pass out AND HAVE A FUCKING SEIZURE right there in triage????? so now we’re (plus billy, who went to sleep a little while ago yay) in beds side by side in the emergency room. no idea wtf was wrong with me, maybe just a little bug plus sleep deprivation (it’s been a rough week with my kid) plus freaking out about my symptoms and making them worse?? idk. meanwhile, his white blood cell count is up a little bit so the nurse said he might have some kind of bacterial infection??
THIS NIGHT I SWEAR TO GOD.
I didn’t watch the whole documentary. After a few episodes it was too painful.